UnT_45 - Mind Madness

People change. In time, places, circumstances.

I've realized many many things ABOUT me and around me.
Mereka yg kuanggap dekat tidak selalu sebaliknya.
Mereka yg kuanggap jauh ternyata sangat dekat.
Yang kuanggap mengenal ternyata sama sekali tidak tau apa-apa.
Yang kuanggap tidak perduli ternyata mengetahui, walau sedikit.
Dulu itu mempengaruhiku, sekarang masih, tapi tidak banyak :)
Walaupun rasa kagetnya tetap sama :p

At the 1st place, I start over and over again to find Him.
Been a long time distracting myself to nowhere place,
and need to come back to the track even by crawling.
No, not that dramatize, lol...but exactly not easy 'though..

2nd place could be more crucial than the 1st in people's eyes,
but someone said 'what happened IN you affect most what happened TO you'
'when your Spirit's grow strong, your Personal and Professional will grow better too..'
Still looking for the right job. The one or two or three that can bring me closer to my goals.
Of course the good even great one in technical aspect such as place, circumstances, salary, job desk, and so on.

At the 3rd place, family matter most (even they are not in the 1st place, heheh...).
Many things and plan burst out from my mind and heart for them *ouch..
For now, I just can do simplest thing regularly.

5th place is a friend. Yep, a friend. She told me few days ago that she plans to 'go' again.
Hufft...very tired with that kind of her. Most of the time I disagree with that style.
When you hate or uncomfortable with someone, should you really leave them?
Is that kind of solution? You can take time, or make space..yes sure go ahead..
But please fellas!! Leave and lost contact forever is an option? Zzz...!!
Sorry for write this is anger...but...only stupid people sacrifice everlasting good relationship
just for own ego/problem of yourself that you haven't win yet!

Last but not least....4th! hihi...yea I put number 4 after 5, since this one is important, precious one.
But for now I have to step aside first. In funny ways, he is so special XD
I hope what he's going through now still work in the right way. Pray for the best for him, okay? :)

As a record of life, I wrote this. Maybe it's not worthed as an article or a post, but this is my life.
Many of 'them' worked as a reminder in the future. Some of them can make me laugh when I read it again later hahaha... How's your life fellas? Would you share in comment? hehe...