Jus 'Ta Story_5

I get a question from God...
I call Him...straight in the moment when i just want to keep my tears back...
"God?"i said.
"Why this all is soo hard? Whether I can pass it or not?"
"I don't say why i get this, it's just sometimes i tought i have failed!"
"This is just a normal thing that ought to be tolerance by people, by anyone.."
"But I can't...why? This deep. Why it's sooo dark?!"

He just smile at me, makes me feel more desperately..
but then...

He said..
"If I let you wish 5 things, what kind of things you want from Me?"

I stay in silent for a while. I just think...
"Hmm..."
"The first thing...if I'm able, I wanna hug You until I feels better??"
"The second thing, I want the right man for me from You...I'm alone not that smart to choose one from a million people around me.. Who's the right one...I just can tell you what character I want.. :)"
"The third thing, I wish I can say Thank You and Sorry to You, more than I'm yelling at you, as long as my lifetime will pass..." 
"And the two wish left, I'll tell You later if I really mean it^^"

He replied then,
"Okay, you write it already :)"
"I want you to keep it all in your mind :)"